Nice deep thought...
I was taking my daily walk at work today. It's not any kind of special walk - I take a route through some house and across a field, past a school and across some roads. Today, however seemed to be special. I began noticing things whilst walking that I have always seen and known yet for some reason they stood out and captured my attention.
When I analysed this, I realised that I was noticing things that I had come to like and enjoy over the years, and they are normal things as well, like freshly cut grass, wooden fences, washing lines, the distant bark of dogs, the chime of the ice cream van and so on.
I soon realised that these were the things of my every day life, the fabric of my existence...and then it hit me: one day all this will be gone - not from the world, but from me. One day I will be gone from here. This realisation hit me and I almost fell over!
It's probably true that the grass will still be cut, the wooden fence will still lean slightly, the washing line will still have faded plastic pegs on it and the dogs will be barking in the distance...the ice cream van may still be floating around too, but hopefully the chime will have changed (don't hold out much of that though). It's just that, they won't be those things in quite the same way as I know them - they won't be my life anymore..they'll just be.
I passed a Father with his young sun, who had just learned to ride a bike, and I then realised that some day my kids will be alive without me being around, they'll only have the memories of me, and at first that made me quite sad and lonely. But, after a while I realised that they are individuals, and they will have their own lives, and they will (I trust) be happy with what they are and what they've become. Maybe they'll do all the things I wish I could, maybe they'll do all things they wish the could do too...
What I've learned today is that what we do now is very precious, and the time we have with them now is priceless, so I live every day with them to the full. I want to build as many happy memories with them as humanly possible, so they have a deep resource to call upon should they need to...and maybe, just maybe, we'll take our memories with us for eternity...now there is a nice deep thought!
When I analysed this, I realised that I was noticing things that I had come to like and enjoy over the years, and they are normal things as well, like freshly cut grass, wooden fences, washing lines, the distant bark of dogs, the chime of the ice cream van and so on.
I soon realised that these were the things of my every day life, the fabric of my existence...and then it hit me: one day all this will be gone - not from the world, but from me. One day I will be gone from here. This realisation hit me and I almost fell over!
It's probably true that the grass will still be cut, the wooden fence will still lean slightly, the washing line will still have faded plastic pegs on it and the dogs will be barking in the distance...the ice cream van may still be floating around too, but hopefully the chime will have changed (don't hold out much of that though). It's just that, they won't be those things in quite the same way as I know them - they won't be my life anymore..they'll just be.
I passed a Father with his young sun, who had just learned to ride a bike, and I then realised that some day my kids will be alive without me being around, they'll only have the memories of me, and at first that made me quite sad and lonely. But, after a while I realised that they are individuals, and they will have their own lives, and they will (I trust) be happy with what they are and what they've become. Maybe they'll do all the things I wish I could, maybe they'll do all things they wish the could do too...
What I've learned today is that what we do now is very precious, and the time we have with them now is priceless, so I live every day with them to the full. I want to build as many happy memories with them as humanly possible, so they have a deep resource to call upon should they need to...and maybe, just maybe, we'll take our memories with us for eternity...now there is a nice deep thought!
posted by DJ Nick Annies at
Friday, August 10, 2007
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